Geez, and I thought *I'd* be emotional. I never counted on Payton crying up a storm.
I just put him in bed. (yep, it's 7:30pm and they're both in bed. It's been that kind of day.) It started at bathtime. He started asking more questions about school. Tomorrow *is* the big day!! The questions were the usual; "Where will I eat lunch?" "What happens if I get sick?" "What if I don't like someone?" "What if people aren't nice to me?". Then we get into the other side. The side he hasn't asked before.
"What will you do while I'm at school?" I told him it'd be a normal day, just without him. We'd still run errands and I told him that he probably won't have to go to the grocery store much anymore since I can go while he's at school. Then I talked about Max and I doing swimming lessons. He seemed ok.
Then. The one that did us in. "But I'll miss you so very very very much! What do I do when I miss you?" That was it. Tears started rolling. Sobbing started. And that was all just Payton. Maxwell chimed in with sympathy crying. I teared up, but I had to show him that it was ok. I had to be strong for my lil' guy.
"I'll miss you too, buddy. But you'll have plenty of people to keep you company."
"Yeah, but they aren't you!"
Oh Lordy, does he know how to pull my heartstrings. Here it comes...I could feel the tears falling.
We cried together, him wrapped in a towel, sitting on the bathroom floor. Talking about school and how it's ok to miss people. I told him he could get a hug from Ms. Dowker, his principal. I told him I'd be there to drop him off and pick him up. I told him that I'd be thinking about him. I reminded him that when he's feeling alone that Jesus is with him all the time. I couldn't think of anything else.
As I tucked him in and turned out the light, he asked if he could take a stuffed animal to school. I told him I thought it would be fine, but that animal would have to stay in his backpack all day.
I think we'll be ok. I think we'll pull through.
But if I'm not posting tomorrow about the wonderful first day of Kindergarten, you'll understand why.