Tuesday, March 24
I have a confession. I'm confessing it because I need support. I'm not one to ask for help often, so when I do, it's serious. I'm sure my friends know that about me by now. And since (mostly) only my close friends read this, I need to share.
I'm in a slump. 99% of it has to do with the way I feel about myself physically. I feel fat. I feel ugly. I feel disproportionate. I feel out of place and awkward almost everywhere I go. I'm uncomfortable in my own skin. I know most women go through this at some point in their lives, and approaching the big 3-0 MUCH faster than I'd like, I'm feeling it hard.
It's affecting my life in a lot of ways, and while I'm good at faking self-confidence, I'm doing just that - faking it.
But I'm not sitting idle waiting for my body to change itself. I'm watching what I eat (maybe too well), I'm working out at least 5 days a week and I'm changing up my routines. Maybe that's the hardest part. That I'm really trying and not seeing results. In fact seeing some opposite results in some cases.
So what I need from my friends (and family) is just thoughts and prayers in the positive. I'm sensitive, I'm crying easily and I'm feeling bad about myself. It's not good as a mother, a wife or a woman. Pray that I can see a change...or that my outlook changes. Somethings gotta give. Soon. Thanks.