Hey, Moms! Ever have those days where you feel you just may not be cut out to be a mother? Or at least not as good of one as you hoped you'd be?
Today was that day for me. Actually, just this morning. Payton had soccer at 9:30am. I "let" Matt take the boys to the field and I made hot cocoa for him and tea for me and grabbed snacks for the boys. I arrived at soccer at 9:45am and enjoyed the game. By 10:30am, we were packing up and heading out. Matt was going straight to work. I didn't want him to go. Yes, because I like spending time with him, but also because I just didn't feel like being a mom. And I was questioning if the boys would have a good day with me. I didn't feel like I was quite capable of what the boys would need today.
Now, in the end, I know that I did a good job with them today. Payton and I had some great one-on-one time which is hard to find now that he's at school all day. And Maxwell and I played kick the ball in the backyard for awhile after I mowed down the field growing back there.
But not all days end that way. Sometimes I really feel like I'm disappointing them. Or maybe instead of being so stern with them, I should cave more often. Maybe they'll grow up hating me. Maybe I'm not teaching them all that I could be.
Why do we as moms, and as women, question ourselves so much? Why is there so much pressure on moms to have "the BEST" kids possible? And why do we let it get to us?
Ugh. I don't think anyone knows the answers or a solution. I think we all just feel this way from time to time. Today was my turn.